I suck at dating. No, but really I do. On top of that I just have the worst luck ever with the guys I date. I’m 25 and I’ve been on like 4 dates in the past 2 years. Because of my bad past with relationships and the fact that I hardly date, I just don’t know what I’m doing. Plus, it’s terrifying and there’s so much pressure that comes a long with dating.
Do I like being single? Yes and no. Sometimes it’s kind of nice having the freedom and space of being single, but it’s also lonely…especially when 90% of your friends are in a relationship. But I’m comfortable being single. I’m used to it. I don’t have to worry about someone breaking my heart either.
I don’t know about you, but for me, dating causes me so much stress and anxiety. I want to look my best… I don’t want to try to hard… am I doing enough? I want to be myself with someone, but it’s hard because I really want to impress them. I want them to see me in a certain way because I like them and I really want them to like me back. I don’t ever know what to do or say. The beginning stage of dating when you’re starting to get to know one another is the worst. It’s fun, don’t get me wrong…there’s nothing more exciting than meeting someone new and getting to know them. The butterflies you get when you talk to them and see them and the excitement is such a rush. But it’s also scary and weird and definitely awkward. At the same time, there’s nothing more terrifying. It comes to a point when I start to overthink and read in to things. Worried it won’t last. Worried that I’ll get hurt again. I’ve actually gotten to the point that I don’t get my hopes up anymore.
It’s easy for me to be friends with guys it’s easy for me to talk to them and get to know them, but when I try to date, there’s so much pressure and I feel like I don’t know what to do. I wish it was easy like it’s easy just being friends with them. I know that’s probably weird, but I have no idea what I’m doing.